Hello lovely peeps,
It’s MOVING TO SHEFF DAY!!! Eeeeek
It’s all I’ve been going on about! I know now that it’s true that once you relax, (harder than it sounds) ‘something’ larger than us shows us the way to what feels like home.
With this I say I feel a certain warmth within me, a natural connection to ‘a flow’, ‘the flow’ – fuck knows how I explain this to you but what I can say is: I’m in total wonderment with how far I’ve travelled, how hard I manifested to be here. To be shown the way.
The warmth I guess comes from knowing that I am exactly where I need to be, divine timing gave me a passion in life, it showed me why I am the way I am and at this moment I’m present, here, talking to you, so content with the path I created.
Tomorrow may be different, but right now I don’t know about that so why worry!
I’ve realised lately that I am learning lessons rapidly. I notice each one & they keep on coming. Like so many things in my life my passion for my impact on myself, the world & spirituality came to me young. As soon as I grasped this, my calling and passion for Sociology found me too.
I feel so incredibly lucky to have this power so early. This summer I worked in an office doing admin work. I realised exactly how soul destroying and tedious life can be when you are spending each day carrying out a process that you don’t even understand. How frustrating it can be and how it actually strips away your power and in even a short period I noticed this.
Sooo, this experience offered me a rich insight into life in the working world, society & its complexities. Why do we settle knowing we are capable of more? People feel stuck, trapped because they simply need to feed their fam and keep a roof over their heads. Again, I felt so alien in this environment that I just knew that I have to be out there, what doing yet I am unsure.
When I look back on this summer I’ve been shown what I can’t tolerate, what I don’t want & at times, what actually repulses me (ha).
On Holiday in Marbs I saw a lifestyle that just could never make me fulfilled in any way. I somehow know that this was ‘the flows’ way of telling me – ‘well in gal, you are on the golden path to a life where you can feel at peace with yourself and others around you.’
And then in this job I was made aware by this invisible but very beautiful ‘flow’ just how I wouldn’t ever want to settle for a career that doesn’t push me to my highest and best. One which will push me to the max but fulfil me the most.
The road less travelled is definitely being paved for me guys.
I’m filled with this warmth because lately I’ve realised that it’s beginning to get easier for me to follow this path. One that feels right to me rather than just ‘doing a subject because I didn’t know what else to do.’ I find it so unfortunate now more than ever that young people are rushed into decisions from like 15?!? How the fuck are we supposed to know at that age where life is gonna take us?
We run then completely blind. We are forced to haphazardly make choices. Quick quick quick you’ll fall behind if you don’t. Then bam. Unhappiness at 40 when sat in an office feeling so alien to yourself and your purpose. This disconnection is why our society is rampant with anxiety, depression & stress disorders and I think we could be very close to exposing it.
So this is why it’s incredible to feel so connected and aligned so young! It’s something that plagues humans and I can’t believe I grasp such difficult existential questions. Clarity is hard to come by and this is why I forgive myself at times when I just can’t comprehend this world.
I created this connection myself and anyone can. I think part of my purpose lies in letting others know that this is 100 million percent possible – it’s self love at it’s most beautiful!
As I bravely pursue my purpose which I now know few get to obtain, I see that during this time of alignment people who are willing to help me stay in this ‘highest and best’ state appear! When the student is ready, the teachers appear and I’m so in the flow that I see this now. There is a certain knowing that I am supported and I am ready now, no longer questioning myself.
I just trust that I am on the way to living my life from such a place of love.
So all in all, in divine timing once again all of a sudden everything makes sense. I feel like over these past few months I’ve been knocked from pillar to post. At times so lost, anxious and confused but these times bring me here! To a place of deep knowing – everything just seems to makes sense!
This is why I feel ready to take on the next phase of my journey, now I believe no longer a girl, but as a woman in tune to the flow and invested in the wonders of divine timing 💖
I always said I wouldn’t get tattoos until things were clear and I knew exactly what they meant to me. So I’m feeling so alive with purpose that I got this one yday before flying the next:-
I know a lot of people are moving away today/this weekend so just want to say; please take a moment to bask in, enjoy, relish just what got you to this moment. The strength in you, the love in you, the dark parts of you.
I looked in the mirror this morning doing this and I feel just, different, ready, confident!
Speak to ya on the flip side,
Love love love!