Hope everyone is all good and vibin’ high! As much as I want to vibe high on a constant lately it’s difficult when pressures of exams are around the corner. Beginning my last term at college today has made it all very real. Soon enough exam time will be here and Uni will be on the doorstep.
Such a strange feeling consumed me over my time off at Easter. Do I laugh or cry at the fact that I’m leaving the place that I have spent the last 6 and a half years of my life. It’s all of a sudden clicked and dawned on me. Expressing this strange soup of emotions to my friends that seem to all kinda feel the same. It’s a mixture of anxiousness and uncertainty of the future and wether we will get the grades we need but also wanting to be present and enjoy the last few weeks being around each other and being in college. It’s hard to do that when we know how close the horror of exams are.
I feel a sense of calm and a strange belief in myself that I am so proud of. I’ve always been a worry worm previously and never really handled pressure too well. But as I have grown I’m choosing not to allow external pressures to consume me and bury my head in the sand like before when I did my GCSE’s. I’m in such a better place now than I was then and it sounds cringe but that was the hardest time in my personal life & I managed to pass all those exams, so I’m trying to imagine what I can do with the clearest & wisest head on me that I’ve ever had.
This time I feel more ready than ever & I know that it’s difficult to self motivate but I am motivated to succeed and that shows in the way I choose to conduct myself, it’s something to be proud of and it’s something I should give more credit to myself for. I feel at 17/18 we feel like everything is permanent we can’t see passed a feeling of dread, a feeling of doubt or a feeling that we just can’t do it! But I can guarantee each time we do overcome it and we can understand why we felt those feelings. Of course we can overcome anything we put our minds to if we choose a growth mindset rather than a victim mindset.
I can’t stress how important it is to me to just try as hard as I can to take one day at a time, taking each day as it comes. This way I’m not wasting what should be a beautiful day by stressing or getting caught up in the future. I try to use the moment I’m in to make he future what I want it to be. But there’s no use in trying to control the future or trying to manipulate the past, it’s gone and we can’t change a thing. It’s also so important for me to remind myself that I am most productive when I am relaxed therefore I’m doing what I can to just chill! Not taking my thoughts too seriously just continuing to take a deep breath every now and then during the day if things are getting too much. Life is as hard as we make it & when I allow love to carry me, the outcome will always be a goodun. Not to worry, we’ve got it sussed 🙂
This was just a quick one (relatively haha) to let those who are feeling panicky or those who feel stuck not necessarily just about exams, you got this take things one day at a time like I do! It’s so important to focus on our mental health, when we do this everything else will fall into place!! TRUST ME! What’s going on in our heads is invisible and it can sometimes be our greatest enemy because it is a constant fight sometimes to keep yourself grounded and sane! Lol. But all I gotta say is you got this..
I’m off to yoga now to ‘put down’ the day 🙂
Stay zen and all my love,